I am not a loose woman. I am just a woman who loves her husband very much and didn’t want to lose him. I just did what I had to do to save my marriage even though I feel guilty sometimes. It was not easy but I slept with my driver so that I could give my husband a child, but instead, God gave me twins, a boy and a girl.
I was married to Philip for eight years. We had no
child. “The worst was that I never got pregnant even for a day.” His mother
became so impatient that she started breathing down my neck as she gave me no
breathing space at all. She moved in to live with us and practically made my life
unbearable – in my matrimonial home. I cannot drink water and drop the cup
because she must insult me. It got to a point that she stopped eating my food
because, according to her, I should be feeding my children so that they would
grow healthy and stronger and not her. “Monica, if you had children, you are
supposed to be feeding them with all these food so that they would grow healthy
and strong. I am getting old so I don’t need all these nonsense you call food.
Take them away and give me grandchildren,” she would scream. She also stopped
talking to me, however, the only time she talks to me is when she wants to
insult me and remind me of how less a woman I was.
Philip and I love each other so much that he stood by
me despite all his mother did or said to frustrate me to leave him. We visited
different specialists and they all certified us medically alright. I have
visited churches, held vigils and even fasted for days, drank various
concoctions of varied colours and combinations all in the name of getting
pregnant so that my mother-in-law can stop humiliating me yet I couldn’t get
pregnant.
It was just the three of us living at home, “God, I
was always so terrified even when I hear her voice from a distance.” It is so
agonizing to say this but my husband usually pleads with me to come out of the
room and this makes him feel so sad especially those times I refuse because I
don’t want to come face-to-face with his mother. When her troubles became too
unbearable, Philip practically threw her out of the house just to make me feel
safe and comfortable in my own home.
When I was five months pregnant, he informed his
mother and she immediately returned to the house. She pampered me like a baby
and also took good care of me. I never wanted to do any scan but my
mother-in-law insisted. When I finally did the scan, it showed I was pregnant
with twins, a boy and a girl. My mother- in-law and husband were extremely
happy while I felt much fulfilled. “God thank you for compensating me with a
set of twins after eight years of barrenness,” I muttered.
Three months later, he held me closely and said,
“Monica, don’t be scared. I don’t want to know who the father of the twins is.
I know whatever you did, you did to save our marriage and I am very proud of
you. I promise to always love you and my babies. I promise this will be a
secret between us. I love you sweetheart. I know we will have our own children
someday.” I wept as he wiped my tears with his hands.
I know what I did was wrong but at least my
mother-in-law is extremely happy with me, that is all that matters. Although,
everyone is happy but I feel guilty that I selfishly used an innocent man to
achieve my aim. But before anybody judge me; just put yourself in my shoes and
think for a moment what you will do?
Monica (dailypost)
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